Do you feel closed, unhappy at times, even if you have everything you ever desired all around you, but still futile in a sense. Does it all seem meaningless, worthless. What if it was easy to run away from everything for a while knowing you can come back and just be normal again. But thats not easy. When you leave, you leave for real, thats the hard part, and you can't come back, maybe you wouldn't even want to, but thats something else. But don't you wonder sometimes if another path would have been more green, more colorful, more calming.
But thats life, you always live here thinking you can be
somewhere else, or maybe you work towards putting yourself at that place
you desire at some point of time, hoping for a better tomorrow like we all
say. But we are a funny race, we reminisce the past and wonder about the
future, but we almost never live here, now. Oh,.. only if that was that
easy to achieve. If you could block out everything and just be here. Maybe
people who can achieve that can be happy, I guess thats what all these
'supposed highs' do, they help you block out?!
Often, especially when you are alone, everything feels so
surreal. Try sitting for an hour, with nothing to do. Its impossible to
not go into past mode, it just almost always happens. When I look back now,
those hard times seem silly and easy, makes me wonder what the whole big
deal was about, but I guess exams are difficult on a child, heartbreak on
a teenager, jobs on a graduate, they are all difficult at those phases, perhaps
I will think later when I'm 40 that 20's was easy. But its funny how you
never think like that when you are there. We are always trying to go back
in time some sense.... to native towns, to childhood, to being single, to
previous jobs, or looking forward to go to new places, get married, have
kids, and to newer opportunities. But why can’t we revel here, with what
we have, with the present. Why is that so difficult? Is that because we think
so much, we keep craving for things we don’t have ,or is it because we are
genuinely not happy. Perhaps time will tell.
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